AWKWARD UPDATE. AWKWARD IS A WEIRD WORD.

So, if you haven’t left because you think I’m loony toons…well, I am and there’s still time! Head for the hills! Ha!

awkward update

Okay, but seriously, if you’re still here, thanks for sticking around. *hugs*  (And Happy Independence Day!!) I’m still feeling a little awkward for putting all that out there but you know what? it’s life, it happened, and I’m dealing with it.  Without getting into too much detail (because I’m not quite ready for that yet and some of it I’ll probably never share), I’ve met with a counselor and I have a line-up of appointments scheduled.  Right now, we’re working on ways for me to deal with stress better because clearly, what I’m doing ain’t workin’!  I’m sure we’ll delve into more re: probable anxiety and possible depression issues but for right now, stress busters are my main focus.

There’s a lot of stuff going on over here in Fit Nana land and I think just too much piled on at once.

awkward update

I think two of my main issues (that I’m willing to talk about now because I’ve already addressed them here) are my sailor transferring and being in another state (and I stayed behind) and my knee.  First things first, my sailor was home in May over Mother’s Day.  IT. WAS. AMAZING.  AND, I’m seeing him in July (wait, that’s THIS MONTH!!!!) when I head to Vegas for BlogFest – are you going?! We should totally meet up! (he’s meeting me there. You might meet him too!) – and then, I’m planning a trip to California in September so we can do some Navy things, some winery things, and just some hanging out things. 🙂  Plus, we pretty much talk every day and sometimes we text all day too.  Honestly though, this “being apart” business is much more difficult than I had anticipated it to be.  Thankfully, we’re almost a year in and that means we’re a third of the way done. But, I miss him.  He’s my best friend and not having him physically here when I need him, or just selfishly want him, basically sucks. #truth

So, my knee…. Things are actually going really well with my knee!!  I’m back out running – actually have gotten up to 4 miles and I’m totally STOKED about that!

Awkward update.

In fact, last week I ran 7 1/2 miles, biked 23 miles (that was one helluva spin class!), went to CrossFit, tried TRX, and walked probably 15 miles. Um, yeah, I was tired come Sunday and did NOTHING. Well, that’s not exactly true. I went to the mall with Thing 2 and did some shopping for BlogFest. 😀

I’m also back to squatting with weight, albeit relatively light, but still. I’m trying hard to get back to normal!  That whole 6 weeks non-weight bearing and then being in the brace for another 4 was pretty tough on me.  Especially since I still had to do ALL. THE. THINGS. because I was the only one in the house.  My son-in-law and granddaughter started living with me the day I got my brace was unlocked and I was actually able to do some things. LOL

Think about it though. I’m 20 weeks post surgery and I’m running and squatting and jumping (small heights) already.  I think that the more I work through this process, the less stress about my knee I’ll have!

Awkward update.

Working out is just so important to me and such a huge part of my life so being able to have that back (with some cautions) is definitely going to help.

Okay, so that’s all you get.  There’s actually a lot more – I know I need to learn to set boundaries, I know I need to learn to respect myself more (with regards to the way I let people treat me), I know I need to ask for help when I need it (but still probably not going to happen – at least for a while), and I know I need to let some things go – but those are for me to work out now and maybe share about later.

QUESTIONS:

  • How do you deal with excess stress? Any tips for me?
  • Do you go see fireworks shows or do you stay home?

4 COMMENTS

  1. Chocolaterunsjudy | 5th Jul 17

    We were chatting post race yesterday, and one of my runner friends was saying she was in counseling during her first marriage & while it didn’t save her marriage, she learned so much from it. There is no shame in asking for help!

    My husband & I lived apart almost 2 years before I moved up here (long story, not much time at the moment), but luckily we were able to see each other more often. We made it through. You will too! And there’s an off chance I might be in CA in Sept. But sadly I won’t be in Vegas. Would’ve been fun (but hot!). Enjoy it.

    • Jennifer
      Jennifer | 6th Jul 17

      Where in California will you be?! That would be cool if we were close and could meet up for coffee or something! 🙂 And that’s a bummer that you won’t be in Vegas. 🙁

      I’m definitely hoping to learn a lot from counseling. I’m glad the only thing I have to save is myself! haha Seriously, I know that’s not funny but I’m just glad that my husband is supportive and helpful and loving enough to be happy that I’m going. It does suck that we don’t see each other as much as we’d like but we’re working on it! I’m so glad he’s able to meet me in Vegas!

  2. Nicole Vinson | 4th Jul 17

    Glad to her you are back at running. I miss so much ru ning and working out with you. I have been in Romania and Bulgaria for a month and one more to go. Fitness going to crap plus major back and k ee issues needing surgery. Totally don’t have the time for that. I feel your frustrations.

    • Jennifer
      Jennifer | 4th Jul 17

      Oh, man, do I miss running and working out with you, too! One of my saddest days last year was you leaving and then me getting hurt and not being able to run with you when you came back! 🙁 I wondered if you were overseas now. At least you only have one month left! That’s a bummer about the knee and back issues! What happened? Deployment prep stuff? What’s the knee issue? I hope you don’t need surgery for your back! MAN, that sucks!! :'(

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