So, if you haven’t left because you think I’m loony toons…well, I am and there’s still time! Head for the hills! Ha!
Okay, but seriously, if you’re still here, thanks for sticking around. *hugs* (And Happy Independence Day!!) I’m still feeling a little awkward for putting all that out there but you know what? it’s life, it happened, and I’m dealing with it. Without getting into too much detail (because I’m not quite ready for that yet and some of it I’ll probably never share), I’ve met with a counselor and I have a line-up of appointments scheduled. Right now, we’re working on ways for me to deal with stress better because clearly, what I’m doing ain’t workin’! I’m sure we’ll delve into more re: probable anxiety and possible depression issues but for right now, stress busters are my main focus.
There’s a lot of stuff going on over here in Fit Nana land and I think just too much piled on at once.
I think two of my main issues (that I’m willing to talk about now because I’ve already addressed them here) are my sailor transferring and being in another state (and I stayed behind) and my knee. First things first, my sailor was home in May over Mother’s Day. IT. WAS. AMAZING. AND, I’m seeing him in July (wait, that’s THIS MONTH!!!!) when I head to Vegas for BlogFest – are you going?! We should totally meet up! (he’s meeting me there. You might meet him too!) – and then, I’m planning a trip to California in September so we can do some Navy things, some winery things, and just some hanging out things. 🙂 Plus, we pretty much talk every day and sometimes we text all day too. Honestly though, this “being apart” business is much more difficult than I had anticipated it to be. Thankfully, we’re almost a year in and that means we’re a third of the way done. But, I miss him. He’s my best friend and not having him physically here when I need him, or just selfishly want him, basically sucks. #truth
So, my knee…. Things are actually going really well with my knee!! I’m back out running – actually have gotten up to 4 miles and I’m totally STOKED about that!
In fact, last week I ran 7 1/2 miles, biked 23 miles (that was one helluva spin class!), went to CrossFit, tried TRX, and walked probably 15 miles. Um, yeah, I was tired come Sunday and did NOTHING. Well, that’s not exactly true. I went to the mall with Thing 2 and did some shopping for BlogFest. 😀
I’m also back to squatting with weight, albeit relatively light, but still. I’m trying hard to get back to normal! That whole 6 weeks non-weight bearing and then being in the brace for another 4 was pretty tough on me. Especially since I still had to do ALL. THE. THINGS. because I was the only one in the house. My son-in-law and granddaughter started living with me the day I got my brace was unlocked and I was actually able to do some things. LOL
Think about it though. I’m 20 weeks post surgery and I’m running and squatting and jumping (small heights) already. I think that the more I work through this process, the less stress about my knee I’ll have!
Working out is just so important to me and such a huge part of my life so being able to have that back (with some cautions) is definitely going to help.
Okay, so that’s all you get. There’s actually a lot more – I know I need to learn to set boundaries, I know I need to learn to respect myself more (with regards to the way I let people treat me), I know I need to ask for help when I need it (but still probably not going to happen – at least for a while), and I know I need to let some things go – but those are for me to work out now and maybe share about later.