So, I’ve struggled before with a bit of an “identity crisis.” If I hadn’t blown up my previous blog (you know, maybe I need to stop rehashing that and move on from it? hmmm…that’s probably a whole different post that needs to be written), you would know that. But seriously, after I found CrossFit 5 years ago, I began to question who I am. Am I a runner? Am I a CrossFitter? Is it possible for me to be both? AND find balance between the two?
Most CrossFitters will tell you that you should never run and that running is the worst and most awful thing ever that you could do to your body (seriously, people have actually said that to me) and most runners will tell you that CrossFit is dangerous and you’ll get hurt. Please, people, can’t we all just get along?!
But seriously though, I’ve struggled over the past few years trying to balance both. I wanted to do both and be awesome at both and that’s just hard for me. Maybe it would be easier if I were in my 20s? LOL Well, this nana doesn’t want to go back and rehash all that! #helltothenaw
It’s time to pick one and make it my priority.
God, I love running. I love everything about running. But, when I discovered CrossFit, I found something new that I loved. Something that makes me feel strong. Invincible. Super hero status, even!
And I LOVE CrossFit.
I love picking heavy shit up off the floor.
I love pushing weight above my head – weights that I never thought were possible.
I LOVE being able to do pull-ups and ring dips and push-ups.
But, you know what? I love running more.
There’s just something about running. It’s what I always come back to.Once a runner, always a runner. Click To Tweet
CrossFit has given me SUCH a self-esteem boost, it’s hard to describe. There’s something about being physically strong and being able to show it that is just so enticing. Muscles are sexy!!
But, running was first. Running started when I was a kid. As an adult, rekindling my love with running got me off the couch and out the door. Running gave me self-confidence. Running took me to new places and distances and helped me make new friends.
Running is my freedom. Running is my brain on pause. Or maybe it’s just free to run wild! Running is my break. I don’t need to think about anything or track anything because my Garmin is taking care of it for me. Or maybe I’m running “naked” and just for fun. (and, um, running “naked” means no watch, ya pervs! haha!) Running isn’t seeing the person next to me move through the lifts faster or better than me. Running is ME just running and being ME, right at that moment.
Running is my safe place. There’s no drama. There’s just peace. And sunrises. And endorphins. I <3 endorphins. 🙂
All of that being said, I’m not giving up on or quitting CrossFit. I’m just rearranging – or maybe just finally actually arranging – my priorities. I’ve set some new goals. Goals that are running oriented. Goals that I am absolutely STOKED about. 2018 is going to be a big year for me!
And CrossFit is going to help me get there. I’m using a training plan from Power, Speed, Endurance (formerly/or aka CrossFit Endurance – I’m not sure which) that has sport-specific training (i.e. running) combined with CrossFit workouts designed to benefit my sport. It’s basically on-line coaching and it’s exactly what I need.Fit Nana has set her goals for 2018 and they're big, big, BIG! Check them out and set your own! Click To Tweet
Right now, I’m easing into it. I mean, 6 months post-surgery, y’all. #babysteps
And that’s why I don’t have anything major planned until next year. I’m giving myself enough time to rebuild my running base while still maintaining strength. See, look at me being smart and responsible. haha!
BUT, I will say this. For someone who’s been recently struggling with motivation issues, this has given me some of it back. I finally feel like I’m getting back to normal (although, who am I to define normal? lol). I finally feel like I know who I am and more of my whole WHY.
Or maybe I just feel better with a plan? Who cares. Bring it on, 2018!
Many, many thanks to Amanda for letting me Think Out Loud about my goals! <3