So, I’ve struggled before with a bit of an “identity crisis.” If I hadn’t blown up my previous blog (you know, maybe I need to stop rehashing that and move on from it? hmmm…that’s probably a whole different post that needs to be written), you would know that.  But seriously, after I found CrossFit 5 years ago, I began to question who I am. Am I a runner? Am I a CrossFitter? Is it possible for me to be both? AND find balance between the two?

dear goals: prepare to be crushed

Most CrossFitters will tell you that you should never run and that running is the worst and most awful thing ever that you could do to your body (seriously, people have actually said that to me) and most runners will tell you that CrossFit is dangerous and you’ll get hurt. Please, people, can’t we all just get along?!

Dear goals: prepare to be crushed

But seriously though, I’ve struggled over the past few years trying to balance both. I wanted to do both and be awesome at both and that’s just hard for me. Maybe it would be easier if I were in my 20s? LOL Well, this nana doesn’t want to go back and rehash all that! #helltothenaw

It’s time to pick one and make it my priority.

God, I love running. I love everything about running.  But, when I discovered CrossFit, I found something new that I loved. Something that makes me feel strong. Invincible. Super hero status, even!

And I LOVE CrossFit.

I love picking heavy shit up off the floor.

I love pushing weight above my head – weights that I never thought were possible.

Dear goals: prepare to be crushed

I LOVE being able to do pull-ups and ring dips and push-ups.

But, you know what?  I love running more.

It’s true.

There’s just something about running. It’s what I always come back to.

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Dear goals: prepare to be crushed

CrossFit has given me SUCH a self-esteem boost, it’s hard to describe. There’s something about being physically strong and being able to show it that is just so enticing. Muscles are sexy!!

But, running was first.  Running started when I was a kid. As an adult, rekindling my love with running got me off the couch and out the door. Running gave me self-confidence. Running took me to new places and distances and helped me make new friends.

Running is my freedom. Running is my brain on pause. Or maybe it’s just free to run wild! Running is my break. I don’t need to think about anything or track anything because my Garmin is taking care of it for me. Or maybe I’m running “naked” and just for fun. (and, um, running “naked” means no watch, ya pervs! haha!) Running isn’t seeing the person next to me move through the lifts faster or better than me. Running is ME just running and being ME, right at that moment.

Running is my safe place. There’s no drama. There’s just peace. And sunrises. And endorphins. I <3 endorphins. 🙂

All of that being said, I’m not giving up on or quitting CrossFit. I’m just rearranging – or maybe just finally actually arranging – my priorities. I’ve set some new goals. Goals that are running oriented. Goals that I am absolutely STOKED about. 2018 is going to be a big year for me!

  1. I’m GOING to run the Marine Corps Marathon series 17.75k in March.
  2. I’m considering the Marine Corps Marathon series half-marathon in May.
  3. I’m GOING to run the full Marine Corps Marathon in October.
  4. I’m GOING to run a 50k in December. (probably this one)

And CrossFit is going to help me get there. I’m using a training plan from Power, Speed, Endurance (formerly/or aka CrossFit Endurance – I’m not sure which) that has sport-specific training (i.e. running) combined with CrossFit workouts designed to benefit my sport. It’s basically on-line coaching and it’s exactly what I need.

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Right now, I’m easing into it. I mean, 6 months post-surgery, y’all. #babysteps

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And that’s why I don’t have anything major planned until next year. I’m giving myself enough time to rebuild my running base while still maintaining strength. See, look at me being smart and responsible. haha!

BUT, I will say this. For someone who’s been recently struggling with motivation issues, this has given me some of it back. I finally feel like I’m getting back to normal (although, who am I to define normal? lol). I finally feel like I know who I am and more of my whole WHY.

Or maybe I just feel better with a plan? Who cares. Bring it on, 2018!

Tell me:

  • Have you started setting goals for next year?
  • Have you ever gone through any sort of identity crisis?
  • Have you ever used an online coaching program?

Many, many thanks to Amanda for letting me Think Out Loud about my goals! <3


  1. Chocolaterunsjudy | 25th Aug 17

    I totally agree that strength training improves running. I’m just not sold that it has to be Crossfit!

    It’s easy to go down the rabbit hole with anything, really!

  2. Run Wright | 24th Aug 17

    Good for you, being clear about who you are and what you want. Great goals and I hope you meet every one.

    • Jennifer
      Jennifer | 25th Aug 17

      Thank you! I hope I meet them too, and have a whole lot of fun doing it! It’s taken me some time to figure out what exactly I wanted and I’m glad I did. You’d think an old lady would be able to do that a little easier. LOL

  3. Chocolaterunsjudy | 24th Aug 17

    There seem to be quite a few runners who do do crossfit, too, but are primarily runners (Marcia, Wendy, and I have another online friend who doesn’t blog).

    I haven’t tried crossfit for the reasons you outline — I don’t think it’s bad, per se, but the risk of injury does seem high to me. Then again, I’ve never tried it so I haven’t drunk the coolaid.

    Having goals works to motivate me. Having my next race picked out — or at least considered — before finishing the present one keeps me focused, too — maybe a little too focused sometimes, LOL.

    I did write a reply to your comment, but it didn’t go through so I’ll post it here: No worries. Making friends isn’t easy for me either — keeping them, sometimes, even harder.

    So maybe it’s time to try a different one. I always have to try different weight watchers meetings when I move until I find a leader i like. It’s almost like therapy — seriously!

    And I’m a pretty good listener if you ever want to talk.

    • Jennifer
      Jennifer | 24th Aug 17

      Doing CrossFit has actually improved my running. I never would have suspected that to be possible but strength training actually does help you run faster. haha And yes, CrossFit can seem scary but, so long as you have a great coach and you pay attention and you don’t go in with a big ego and a chip on your shoulder, you are probably more likely to get hit by a car crossing the street than get injured (I don’t know those statistics to be true but it seems plausible! haha). But, I think I just got too caught up in it and forgot to do the things I really enjoy. 🙂 I’m happy with my decision to keep it in my life but focus on my running. And yes, I like having the goals and the next race picked out. I’m SO excited!!!

      And I might take you up on your offer one day. <3

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