2017 has definitely been an interesting year for me. I’ve certainly tried some new things – knee surgery, living that crutch life, physical therapy, mental therapy, purple sweet potatoes, working in a gym, not working in a gym, etc – but I’m not going to talk about any of those things.
I want to talk about something I want to/am going to try in 2018.
I’m actually doing 2 new things!
I’ve officially hired a running coach! Hello, please give me structure, thankyouverymuch!!! (while helping me reach my goal of my first ultra, of course) 🙂
“A month long course consisting of 6 modules with
training around fueling and training specific to runners.”
“…especially helpful for those who have big running
goals and need a nutrition boost….”
Hey, that sounds like me!!
I’m super excited because I feel like it’s going to help me get back on track, get back to normal, get back to ME.
*side note* If that course sounds like something you need or might be interested in, if you use the code FITNANA, you’ll get $5 off! And honestly, the price is pretty darn reasonable as it is – the basic is $39! But the price is going to go up after Friday, December 15th so get in there before that goes up!
*another side note* My fee was waived in return for a review of the course. That doesn’t make me any less excited about it and I had planned on participating even if my fee wasn’t waived because I believe it will be beneficial to me.
You might wonder WHAT I mean by “get back to normal, get back to ME.”
Well, tbh, my eating habits are all screwed up. Bad.
And continuing my current habits is definitely not going to help me with my running goals or benefit my health.
I mean, I generally eat well because I actually like healthy foods but I have definitely become quite good at stress eating, stress drinking, and just generally exhibiting a lack of control. Usually around 6pm or later.
Here’s the normal way it goes down – eat well all day, drink plenty of water, do work on blog, do schoolwork, blah, blah, blah. Then, I pour a glass of wine while I’m cooking dinner. Then, I pour another one while eating dinner. Suddenly, I want a cookie. And some chocolate. More wine? Nah. I’m not hungry. *5-10 minutes later* Well, okay, if you insist. And now since I’ve screwed everything up, I might as well eat another cookie, right?
(And yes, I’m very embarrassed. I wrote that part, took it out, put it back, took it back out, and then decided it needed to go in there. I know I have things to work on. If you go through the same, you are NOT alone! But, we can get through this!!)
Plus, I’ve tried so many different ways of eating over the past couple of years – Paleo, Whole 30 (twice. don’t ask me why, too restrictive for this girl), gluten free (Whole 30 made me feel funky when I reintroduced gluten so I skipped it for a while), dairy free (had some bad tummy issues that threw me ALL out of whack), low FODMAP (again, tummy issues), etc – that I’m just a hot mess at this stage. I wouldn’t know intuitive eating if it slapped me in the face.
And honestly, I’m tired of it.
I am aware that I should probably get back into therapy to discuss the root(s) of how I got to where I am right now (ahem -> stress, anxiety, and depression) and I will if what I’m going to try doesn’t help me get back on the right path. I’ve been doing a lot of journaling and soul searching and I think I’ve uncovered the culprit.
(But seriously, I will if I still feel off and unbalanced.)
Not to get too off topic but I had some serious life changes – you already know my sailor is stationed out in California while I stayed behind in Virginia. It’s been just over a year now. And you already know about my knee surgery and not being able to run for such a long time! – that involved a complete and total career change (not one, but two (I guess technically 3, now that I’m thinking about it) once I realized that first change wasn’t the right one) and it hasn’t gone exactly as I had planned. I’m currently not working (career change #3), I am going to school online full time, and I’m trying to work more on this blog. My in-person social network is pretty much non-existent. I mean, I have the Things and the Grandthings but that’s about it. No girls nights, no movies, no dates with my sailor, no gym friends, no running friends (working on that one!), no “work friends,” nothing.
It’s just me.
Without anyone to regularly cook dinner for or eat dinner with.
I love structure but apparently I royally suck at setting it up for myself. I also apparently don’t handle “single life” very well.
Not that I want to get proficient at that “single life” because I want him to retire and come home but I definitely need a change.
And I’m excited about these two new things! I’m excited about the possibilities, the learning, the hard work, and the chance to turn some things around and achieve some goals and become a better version of me.